Winter really is the season of people getting depressed.. My pastor told Stephanie and me about it, but I didn't really think much of all that junk. Now for some reason I'm getting a little slap of it!
Something about spring makes my chest tighten up, makes my mind run back to earlier times in life. This whole Growing Up thing is much more overrated than anyone could put into words! I wish I'd have listened to the older folks who would tell me not to rush growing up, that it would come soon enough.
Granted, I didn't have an ideal childhood, like many other people, but the things and people I got to be a part of always somehow remain with me no matter how far or long it's been. I can remember sitting in the cool grass talking on my hand-me-down portable phone till midnight, or chasing and catching lightning bugs in Grandmother's huge and old-smelling backyard. Christmas at her house and the way her basement was always chilly and damp!

I remember when I first noticed other people my age following Christ with their lives and voices, making a clear statement of Whom they believed in. Having never seen it that way before.

Now I'm 24, wondering how I managed to pass by all the years behind me... I'm a grown up, I'm an adult, I'm old enough to smoke, vote, drink, and buy a pistol; but inside I wonder if we all feel like kids trying to fill a grown-up mold in a big world full of expectations and unknown challenges yet to come. Today I woke up late, laid in bed for a while, then got up, made my bed, cleaned my room a little, and played xbox for a while. Didn't get called in to work, no chores to do... just relax time. And it reminded me of what things were like when I was a kid... not that I didn't have anything to do, but that the things I had to do were insignificant compared to adult responsibilities, which I grasped even as a teenager.

I'm fixing to get married in a couple months, move into an apartment with my wife, then move to C-town and finish college. Coupled with knowing the Lord has pressed on my heart the desire to pastor and disciple teens, use my musical skills in a band worshiping Christ, and make good use of the photography talent He gave me - there is much to do!

Christ, be the center of my life... we lift our eyes to heaven, we wrap our lives around your life... Be the center of my life!